Going Out with Knots: My Two Kaddish Years with Hebrew Poetry

Finalist for the 2025 National Jewish Book Award
Featured on Zibby Owens' My Most Anticipated Books 2025 list

Interweaving memoir with Hebrew poetry, Going Out with Knots illuminates author Wendy I. Zierler's literary and personal Jewish mourning journey in the aftermath of unremitting personal loss. She begins with her story: the death of both her parents in one year; the challenges she faced as a woman saying Kaddish in an Orthodox synagogue; and her decision to teach a weekly class on modern Hebrew poems that address grief, prayer, and God wrestling. Each subsequent chapter delves into the works of a different modern Hebrew poet--Lea Goldberg, Avraham Ḥalfi, Yehuda Amichai, Rachel Morpurgo, Rachel Bluwstein, Ruhama Weiss, and Amir Gilboa--in the order in which she translated, interpreted, and taught their poems (many translated into English for the first time). Each poet, like Zierler, comes to writing deeply connected to Jewish tradition and yet at odds with it, too. Ultimately, Going Out with Knots reflects on how a woman living in a Modern Orthodox community can claim a place in the male-centered rituals that Jewish tradition prescribes for mourning, and how immersion in modern Hebrew poetry can respond deeply to both communal (COVID-19, October 7) as well as personal losses, offering a new form of theology and Torah.